Life goes on.

No matter how many rocks are throwing to you,

No matter how many things you need to bear with,

No matter how many fears occur,

No matter how many things you've been lost,

Others' words hard to change you,

Only you can change yourself.

A lot of things happened recently,

Those who have been hurting me, 

I will try to forgive.

But I still need some time.

Finally learnt to look through them deeply.

Is that funny? 

I laugh like fake,

It is truly ridiculous,

I used to be a fake laughter,

Forgotten me.

This is not only my own life.

I'm not emo

The new term is beginning,
Today,
I've received my very previous outwork.
In that time, i really looks smart.
But now, when I looking back to my work before,
I can feel that I'm moving back from the hardworking me.
Now, I become lazy, can't concentrate, losing confidence and
lack of time management.
I've used to live with 'homework' for my past 18 years.
haha...
And now, I'm trying to not listen to my lecturer.
Don't finish the complete one.
I really feel unease with it.
Should I follow other classmates,
or actually i could effect them to follow me?
I do not mean to use all the time for homework,
the problem is just complete some of it by the time?
I don't like to become a good student,
selfish student,
top student...
who is noob enough and always listen to teachers.
I.. just wish to do what I should do.
I just wish to have a normal and complete schooling life.
Just that simple.

There are a lot of things i need to know,

throw out the innocent thinking that i used to be,

accept what's really happening around me.

accepting the hidden part from the person that i always admire,

accepting the 'benefits' relationship between friends,

feeling ridicules looking someone lying with a sincere face.

this all make me to be more bewared to everyone around me.

eveyone is not perfect like what i think before,

no one is perfect,

and

there is less people who would admit his/her defect,

haha... they might even feel they dint wrong.

a lot of people like to find excuses for their mistakes.

maybe it's same to me.

this messy thinking made me down for awhile.

feeling like to ask 

why i realised all of this so late when everyone already knew for a long time?

haha.... innocent!

hmmm.... 

this is real life.

that i never notice it before.

i have ever think of rather live without all of this.

but i know i can't!

this is the real life that i have to go through.

and i must keep positively, optimistic,

and...

STEADY! 

haha...

Evils cant defeat angel.

Recalled back i have ever wished to know all those things.

Thanks God for letting me know :)