There are a lot of things i need to know,

throw out the innocent thinking that i used to be,

accept what's really happening around me.

accepting the hidden part from the person that i always admire,

accepting the 'benefits' relationship between friends,

feeling ridicules looking someone lying with a sincere face.

this all make me to be more bewared to everyone around me.

eveyone is not perfect like what i think before,

no one is perfect,

and

there is less people who would admit his/her defect,

haha... they might even feel they dint wrong.

a lot of people like to find excuses for their mistakes.

maybe it's same to me.

this messy thinking made me down for awhile.

feeling like to ask 

why i realised all of this so late when everyone already knew for a long time?

haha.... innocent!

hmmm.... 

this is real life.

that i never notice it before.

i have ever think of rather live without all of this.

but i know i can't!

this is the real life that i have to go through.

and i must keep positively, optimistic,

and...

STEADY! 

haha...

Evils cant defeat angel.

Recalled back i have ever wished to know all those things.

Thanks God for letting me know :)